Enough...

When is enough, enough? When do you give up & move on? How many losses, D&C’s, tests, procedures & surgeries before it all becomes too much? We want to have kids, but we are powerless to do so on our own.
Initially, I wanted to go forward with fertility treatments. But I’d need a hysterosalpingogram 1st to get a look at what’s going on, (about $3000 in total cost) and that’s a lot of money to spend just to help us decide whether or not to do fertility treatments that will cost 10’s of thousands of dollars, not to mention the physical and emotional cost.
I’ve had enough. Enough pregnancies that end childless, enough tests/ ultrasounds to have an intimate knowledge of my own internal reproductive system, and enough heartache to break my heart wide open. I can’t do it anymore, I’m done.
We’re closing the infertility door. We’re looking into adopting through foster care, or at least that’s how we’re starting the home study process.
Having had an approved home study before we know what to expect. I’ve felt such a pull toward adoption lately, and hope to get through the process of our home study fairly quickly so that our Mecham family include more than fur babies.
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