Thank you

Thank you all for your words of kindness
and friendship toward us.
It means so much to have such good friends.
During the hardest times in our trials,
we find our friends,
and our friends find us.
Comfort isn't found in just your words,
but knowing that your thoughts and prayers
are with us.
We feel them, we feel your support,
and it buoys us up.

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead
Just walk beside me and be my friend."
~ Albert Carnus


During the week following Joseph's diagnosis I encountered a dear old friend, once at the movies and then again at the temple. "A" we need to run into each other on purpose on of these days! We were also blessed to have Joseph's family come to visit and we shared a few great days enjoying each others company, :). We all went to the temple together, a session that was filled with people we know and love. I don't think that we have been in the same session with so many friends and family since our wedding almost 4 years ago. Our Bishop and his wife were there, and oh, how we LOVE them!! And we love you!

*js*

Going on hiatus..

Well to get right to the point, I will not be blogging for a while and this is why:

Joseph and I paid a visit to the ophthalmologist (eye specialist) on Tuesday. Joe was diagnosed with partial blindness, or visual impairment, due to nerve damage, and probably caused by his MS. Since it is nerve damage it is medically irreversible. This new diagnosis has been a shock and been pretty devastating for the both of us. As of yesterday he is no longer able to work at Toyota. We are seeking out help and resources from Blindness centers and vision rehabilitation services, also unemployment and we already have an appointment for disablilty.

So I will be leaving my morning job (keeping my teaching job if possible) for something more full-time while we work things out for Joe. We have already hit the phone lines hard talking to state foundations for the blind and we will be in touch with a vocational and rehabilitation counselor, from the Department of services for the Blind, soon after Christmas.

Joseph and I have already received priesthood blessings from my grandfather and from the sounds of it he will not be regaining his vision, but things will somehow work out. We were comforted by the blessings but that does not take away the hurt or difficulty of the situation we are now in. We have also been fortunate enough to be able to visit with our wonderful bishop last night and he is on board and ready to help with whatever we need. He has been a great support for us.

The timing is awful but good at the same time, I am on Christmas Vacation from both from my jobs and so I have the time to dedicate to contacting everyone we need to, and accessing the help we know we need.

**Disclaimer*** we are not looking for pity, or unsolicited advice, however we are looking for prayers and words of comfort from our family and friends during this difficult time. Thank you for understanding.

We need your love and support

We are again going through a difficult time: three weeks ago we found out that I was pregnant, two weeks ago our baby died, and one week ago is when we found out. I was nine weeks pregnant and the baby was measured at eight weeks.. Our doctor wants me to miscarry naturally, but if that doesn't happen by monday (the 28th) we'll go ahead and have a D&C.

This came as a shock to us, both the pregnancy and the impending miscarriage. We aren't looking for anything more than moral support. We're tired of feeling like we've been keeping secrets from those who love us. We just want you're understanding, especially if we're not being very social, if we don't want to talk about things and if we've been a little distant. Sorry, but now you know why.